Going to college. I have no scholarships or financial aid. I thought I was going to move to California but I wasn’t accepted to the schools I applied to there. I have to live with my parents for the next year because I can’t afford the shitty housing at the university I’m going to. I have no idea what I am going to study. I wish that my parents would let me take a year off before going to college because I can’t handle this and I need to save up money. But they act like Im the biggest disappointment already… And I hate disappointing them, they make me feel so shitty…

I love my brother more than anything. He is an amazing person and he has done some pretty fantastic things with his life. He is obviously very successful in his life and a fascinating person. That being said, I would very much appreciate it if people would stop starting conversations with me by saying “hi, how’s your brother?”, especially if they reply with this after I have asked them how they are. I believe that the appropriate response in this situation is “how are you?”. This happens to me almost every single day and I find it so unbelievably disrespectful. I do not mind if you are interested in what my brother is doing with his life, but at least have an ounce of respect to ask me what I am doing with my life. Honestly, if you want to know my brother is doing, ask him yourself. I have my own life and my own successes that I would love to share with people, but they never ask me.

Lost all of my Otep albums. Crying. This is so lame. The only thing that would cheer me up right now is Otep… Ugh.